Yay. It's very late (really??) and I should go to bed, but I've decided I must post and so here I am. Furthermore, the nailpolish I put on is still quite fresh and I don't want to ruin my hard work by going to bed~
However~ *clears throat*
During the past week, I've been thinking a lot about many things (which, of course, are all pretty trivial, but, hey, what did you expect from me??), and I've thus come up with the following list(s).

( Fear not, for the content behind this cut is completely angst!free~ )

Now I'm going to bed since it's 4:00 am, and although school finishes around eleven, I've still got to get up early... *sweatdrop* Can't wait for this torture to finish once and for all. =o=;

It has already been a long time since I last updated, hasn't it? Honestly, I hadn't really noticed till I glanced at the lovely LJ homepage with a decent amount of concentration and read that I had last posted something here, like, two weeks ago. Yay me.
Everyday I tell myself I want to write and rant over something I just read/watched/thought, but little brother-san, here, won't let me. He's like--like a leech, when it comes to the net. But--Let's not talk about this. It only makes my head ache, so~

( Boring rant over school and politics and cosplay and jerks and fashion and fanfics and fanarts ahead! )

That said, folks, I must go and write something. I hope I won't forget updating again. ^___^

P.S. If you have never did it, go and listen to Placebo's A song to say goodbye--I love Placebo and I meant to say this for a very long time, but... go and listen to it!! It's like, Seishirou saying goodbye to Subaru... T________T Must write something with that song, someday, although I hate song-fics, usually...

Hello? T___T/
Sorry this is so pointless, but my life seems a neverending rush of events/things to do/random disturbances, and I don't have even time to breathe.
( Warning! Boring rant behind this cut! )
As for now, I've joined au100 and claimed SeixSub. I can't wait to start working on the prompts!! <3333 I've always loved writing AUs (it's just the TB/X fandom that got me into writing fics with canon setting, all of sudden...), and I already have a few alternate universes in mind.
I'm posting the theme table here so that you can read it and suggest plots/settings. <3

001.	Beginnings	002.	Middles	003.	Ends	004.	First	005.	Last
006.	Hours	007.	Days	008.	Weeks	009.	Months	010.	Years
011.	Red	012.	Grey	013.	White	014.	Black	015.	Blue
016.	Purple	017.	Brown	018.	Green	019.	Pink	020.	Colourless
021.	Friends	022.	Enemies	023.	Lovers	024.	Family	025.	Strangers
026.	Teammates	027.	Parents	028.	Children	029.	Birth	030.	Death
031.	Sunrise	032.	Sunset	033.	Too Much	034.	Not Enough	035.	Sixth Sense
036.	Smell	037.	Sound	038.	Touch	039.	Taste	040.	Sight
041.	Shapes	042.	Triangle	043.	Square	044.	Circle	045.	Moon
046.	King	047.	Heart	048.	Diamond	049.	Queen	050.	Joker
051.	Water	052.	Fire	053.	Earth	054.	Air	055.	Spirit
056.	Breakfast	057.	Lunch	058.	Dinner	059.	Food	060.	Drink
061.	Winter	062.	Spring	063.	Summer	064.	Fall	065.	Passing
066.	Rain	067.	Snow	068.	Lightning	069.	Thunder	070.	Storm
071.	Broken	072.	Fixed	073.	Light	074.	Dark	075.	Shattered
076.	Rebirth	077.	Paralysis	078.	Disease	079.	Agony	080.	Healing
081.	Blind	082.	Deaf	083.	Lost	084.	Found	085.	Missing
086.	Choices	087.	Life	088.	He	089.	She	090.	It
091.	Birthday	092.	Christmas	093.	Thanksgiving	094.	Solstice	095.	New Year
096.	Writer‘s Choice	097.	Writer‘s Choice	098.	Writer‘s Choice	099.	Writer‘s Choice	100.	Writer‘s Choice

Lastly, it's meme time! <333 It was originally an icon meme from sakujosadame's journal (aww, she made such a lovely icon for me!! *__*), but since I don't have a decent pic-editing software, I'm turning it into a drawing meme like yoru_yume. <3

1. Comment with lyrics and a fandom.
2. I'll draw a fanart/sketch that represents those lyrics/uses them in some way.
3. Repost and do this for your friends♥

Now, it's shower time, and then I've got to studystudystudy and PAINT. OMG THE CLOCKS ARE TORTURING ME EVEN IN MY DREAMS.

Bai bai and thanks for reading~~!

Hello~.
It has been a while, hasn't it? I got back from Madrid ten days ago, in the evening. Studied Philosophy till 4 am and went to school on the day after while everyone else was at home. Resting. Me, I had this Philosophy certamen (i.e. challenge) to decide who would represent our school at the regional selections (which will take place on 3/31). From then on, I haven't been sleeping more than three hours each night. At least, it seems my efforts were rewarded, since I got the best score like last year~ but this also means that I get even more extra-extra studying to do, and I feel like everything is so rushed and I'm not learning anything at all... X__x;
Luckily, Easter break started, and yesterday was my first day of freedom! <3 Yay! >:D I actually spent the morning looking for decent green contacts with Lau-chan, then she came over at my place for lunch and stayed till eight, and the whole afternoon went by painting that damn fabric DGHRUIBVGHJDSVKIKB Today I continued on my own, and now I'm almost finished, but I don't even want to think about when we'll have to paint the details of each clock... right now, it's all blue dots of three different sizes on a huge piece of black fabric. *faints*
Since I got back, I have been on the Net only a couple times, and for a few minutes too. I didn't have time to stay longer, sorry. So, if anyone has posted something they want me to read, please, let me know/post a link! I promise I'll search through my friends' journals to catch up ASAP, but I don't want to miss anything important~! >.<;/
However, I've been working on a fic in the meanwhile. I'm posting it tomorrow with something else (right now, really, I'm nearly dead to the world and the basic ways to use a pc/interact with other human beings).
I don't even want to talk about the school trip-- too tired, too uninteresting. I'll simply let you know that I don't like Madrid (speak about dull comments, uh?).

( And, here are some pics, just because I love pictures, even though I didn't even bother to edit these... )

Tomorrow I shall work on the fabric and finish it, but I still want to rant over TRC OAV 3 and chapter 185! write and draw again... D:
Does anybody have some nice (drawing) meme to tag me with? I'm bo~red!

Hika is writing to tell everyone that she is sorry she hasn't been able to post anything this week - fics, scans. Anything.

As you probably know already, Saturday morning I'm leaving for Madrid, and, actually, I'd rather stay here than leave. For the first time in my life I'm not eager to get away from home; I guess I'm too angry and bitter and - god - I'm so glad this is my last year in high school. I can't stand it anymore - everyday I see the same faces, I listen to the same idiocies, and, more and more, I wish I could smash someone's face, at least. I'm stressed, I know.

And work. I hope I'll manage to get a better job this summer, because tutoring is so frustrating when the kids are irresponsible and so lazy they don't do anything on their own-- always waiting for you to show them the way. Heh. Leeches. I think it's a matter of respect too: if I'm working for you, then the least you can do is to be respectful and don't let my efforts be in vain. And between that and the clubs and courses at school and everything else I just don't have any time for myself.

The only things which keep me going are the thought of university (I can't believe that in a matter of months I'll be finally able to study what I really like-- more than anything else and that - as corny and stupid as it may sound - constitues a good portion of the sense of my very existence) and of the upcoming Con on April.
In the end I'm going to cosplay TB!Subaru with the blue/clock outfit. Unexpectedly, Lau-chan (who's just gotten into X after I lent her my copies) decided to join me and do Hokuto! This happened a while ago, but the thought of cosplaying together with a friend is still enough to make me smile like an idiot. I've drawn a matching outfit for her myself. It's actually pretty much identical to Subaru's, except for the skirt and a few details here and there to make it more feminine.
Tomorrow I'm going to preorder our wigs, while tonight I must work on the black fabric that goes inside our jackets-- I need to paint clocks all over it and I'd like to have it done before I leave. *sighs*

However, I'll do my best to post something before I leave. I swear I'll try.

Now I'm going take a shower and then work and eat and work again.

Ladies and gentlemen this is Hikasama speaking~ We are proudly presenting you her New and Functioning Computer <333 YAY.
Yesterday dad came home from work and went straight to the living room where that very cpu which went BOOM the other day was resting; he took it and went out again. He came back in less than a couple hours with my sweet darling in his arms <333 Oh~ I love it so, so much <3 I can open the 'start' menù without having to wait for it to appear <333 It's a Win XP too, but who cares? Now I don't have to worry for my data getting lost at any moment, nor for the softwares being too heavy and and and... everything is quicker <3 Now I just need to download iTunes and eMule and a couple of other things, and then my life will be perfect~ and next to the new cpu, the best thing is the infrared mouse <333

I'll soon make myself a new id for lj and~ goodness, I need a new layout. Something with Subaru. And Seishirou. And maybe Kamui too. But I couldn't find any living lj comm which accepts requests *sighs* Someone help meee~~~ *echoing shout*

Yesteday I drew my first X fanart. It's a group pic of Fuuma, Kamui and Kotori. I hate Kotori, but I liked the idea of drawing the three of them together. And my Kamui is a woman and Kotori looks like Sara Mudou and FUUMA LOOKS LIKE A GIRL. I already added the details and all, but I didn't ink it. I think I'll do the inking on some higher-quality paper. I've also started another fanart~ this one is 'bout Hokuto, Subaru and Seishirou during the TB days *weeps* I want it to be similar to the other: I'll stick with similar poses and, probably, outfits too <3
I've also got in mind at least other two sets of correlated pics but - as always - whenever I'm getting creative and ispired, I'm torn between drawing and writing. And I end up doing neither.

I wrote some more of Nisemono~ my, my. I don't think I've ever written anything like that. It seems it's all about touching, feelings, sensations and such. But I don't really think there'll be a lemon *sweatdrop* I haven't written one in years, since a dear friend of mine practically forced me to write her a RiffxCain lemon as a present for St. Valentine's day.

Ah, I'm hungry, too, now. And I don't want to think about school and going back there. And I purchased Petshop of Horrors a couple days ago <333 T___T And I'm trying hard to convince myself I don't need to buy the two X artbooks. Or the Medabot videogame for GBA I saw at Block Busters'-- it costs just ten euros but I must buy nothing else than manga - which is necessary - because I need to save if I want to make a decent Subaru outfit, and I have to work a whole hour to earn ten, miserable euros T____T

I totally hate my mother's laughter. It makes my ears BLEED.

Dear Santa,

I know I'm a bit late and that eighteen-years old who have never really believed in you aren't supposed to write letters asking for anything, but, you see, things have been quite - uh - stressing here, and I don't think I can manage to keep everything bottled up inside for another year or so.
First of all, I think you know I wish for nothing in particular (except, maybe, that carillon and that kitten and - oh! - the Cygnus cloth I've been waiting for since I was, like, three or four but I never got), and that I don't consider technology to be anything but a instrument to live a little bit better and, thus, I don't care at all if my pc still works with an Win XP system, or if its clock and calendar have been fucked up for years now. But you also know that I love writing and I love fanfictions and scanlations and hence - in order to be happy and content - I need a good, working machine sitting on my desk.
This pretty thing I'm using right now is eight years old, and last month, it decided to commit suicide and let itself burn together with all of my data *smiles* Now, I'm sure you understand that, no matter how much I support everyone's right to decide of their own life and death, such a thing couldn't make me exactly happy. So, dad said, it's time to get a new pc. YAY.
Pity is, said shiny, smartly-designed, brand-new pc literally blew up today, a few minutes after I had it assembled and working. My brother and I were trying to figure out why the speakers didn't work and suddenly the cpu went BOOM, and there were pretty, red sparkles everywhere ^_____^ I stood still. I stared. And stared. And stared some more. Then I smiled. I believe at some point I must have laughed too, because my brother was looking at me in a worried way. What did piss me off the most was my parents' reaction: they wouldn't let me be for even a minute, when all I wanted was some time alone to accept the loss what had happened. I remember thinking: "Is this my destiny, then, to never own a perfectly functioning computer?". Yeah, I know I'm a drama queen but, hey, at least everything goes on in my own inner theater (it's kind of like Tamaki's) only. Also, blame it on Clamp. Destiny, destiny, destiny. To think I've always despised that word before I started obsessing over X. But that's beside the point.
Of course, friends and such have been texting me all day with their wishes for a Merry Xmas and all that jazz. But was it really necessary for nearly every and each one of them to ask about Santa? Oh yes. Almost everyone wrote: "Did Santa come and bring you nice gifts?" or "Has Santa been good with you?". If I weren't a dull, sad person who completely lacks spontaneity, I would have thrown my mobile right against the wall just after the second message.
As if that weren't enough already, I can't still buy 'Ren' because I'm short of eleven euros to cover the whole price, shipping costs included. And that means going to the post office, waiting for my turn and filling papers over papers again *head-desk*
So, dear Santa, I was wondering if you could let me know if it'd be better for me if I just surrendered and installed my old softwares and drivers here, so that I can at least make myself some decent icons and maybe - just maybe - post something on my DA gallery after centuries of nothing, and - I hope that isn't too much - write some more...?

Wishing you a merry Christmas,

Hika

P.S. on a brighter side, I've finally chosen the outfit I'm gonna wear at the next Comicon, on April 2008: I'm gonna be Subaru from the Clamp no Kiseki cover <333 I really wanted to be Seishirou but... none of his outfits hit my fancy - not particularly - except for the TRC one, but it was too black. Still, I liked a lot the black kimono he wears in some pics with Subaru as well as in the Death tarot card, but I don't think it would come out well enough. I'll be already lucky if I can manage to pull out a decent outfit for TB Subaru u.ù;;
I've also decided what I'm gonna paint on the walls of my room <333 If I can defeat my fear of standing up on chairs, I'd really like to paint something all around the door too <3