I FEEL NEGLECTED. Everyone around me is like, DEEEEAAAAD. *nods*

And, I must buy some dvds soon, or this computer will die on me before the month ends: I can't use iTunes without it restarting itself on its own, most of the time I can't even access msn, and a lot of other things which are really annoying.

Now I'm going to console myself with Kaya's revamped!Glitter. Even though the thought of him only makes me suffer more, 'cause why, just WHY is he going to the US and NOT in Europe too???! KAYAAAAAAAAAA! ;_________;

I feel like I've been breathing in and out the same air since I got up. Mmmh. It's so hot here and my family is so, so fucked up~ <3 Lalalala~ Hika really wants to run away~ And, adults are the worst. <333

( Luckily, I wrote the answers to the meme under the cut last night, so they should be poison-free. *heart* )

EDIT. Just adding another meme, because I can? ( Just click on this cut. )

...I'M ALIVE AT LAST.

AND FULLLLLLLLLLLLL OFFF JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOY.

*hides shiny razor*

Anyhow, about the joy-thing, well, it's not exactly true but that's a long and boring story, and I will tell you about it another time. BUT. I am alive and. I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEE and I can now spend my happy, high school-free days, slicing throats and selling human flesh to creepy bakers.

Ahh, I've still got to realize that I'm actually free. Yesterday, the first thing I did after getting home, was to throw away every single piece of paper scribbled with numbers and scientific notions. Now, next thing I'm doing is SELLING EACH AND EVERY ONE OF MY TEXTBOOKS. And, of course, what I won't manage to sell is going to be set on fire. <3

Passing onto other matters. I shall devote myself to writing and DRAWING DOUJINSHI AND CRACKTASTIC STUFF. And, speaking of crack, in the past days sonadow_yuffie and I have actually been working really, really hard through msn, you know. XD (Yuffie cara, non soccombere mai a ^_^ anche se i veterinari sono malvagi!) Anyhow, that's why I'm asking you: pleeease, check the AU100 prompt table and GIVE ME PROMPTS, dearest f-list. *shows puppy eyes* You can find it here. <3

Monday's test went well for Hika--actually, a lot better than she thought, since a couple of questions were... uh, pretty much unexpected. I got a 14/15~!! So, now I'm really-really supposed to study, since I only have two days before the last test, but. *cries* I don't want to!

I'm just going to chat with people and. Write. Because I want to write. *gets shot*

Life is wonderfu~~l~!! *random*

AND I SO NEED A JOOOB.

Lalalala~ Enjoying (??) a short pause in between the exams~ (actually, Hika is supposed to study for Monday's interdisciplinary test, buut XD)
The Italian test went well~ I actually got the highest score, and that's a lot, especially considering that almost everyone else got low-low marks, and that the teacher, who is one of the outsiders, has been glaring at me for the whole time--maybe it was because of my Superman shirt, or it was the hariclips or the fact that I smiled or or or I don't knowww! x.x;
And, as for Greek... uwaaah. It was so easy! XD I even got complimented for my translation! XD;
...So, I phoned my Latin&Greek teacher who told me about all of this, and he also said that my total score is actually one of the highest, and that, if I keep going like this, I'll get a 90 or more~ Ahhh, and to think that Hika hasn't been studying at all while everyone is going crazy here. XD

Anyhow, passing onto more pleasant matters, I bring you FANART.

( We bathe into the light of a new day that could have been. )

BEHOLD MY NEW, AWESOME LAYOUT MADE BY tilderific!!!

AND.

...

UWAAAAAAAAAAH. EXAMS ARE STARTING TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWW.
GJKIGHIOSDHNCFOIGASUFVB!!! TOMORROW I'M STARTING WITH STATE EXAMS! WHEN DID I GET SO OLD, EXACTLY???!!! DDD:
HIKA IS FULL OF ENERGY AND IMPATIENT AAANDDD. IT'S SO STRANGE, THINKING THAT I'M GOING TO BE TOGETHER WITH MY WHOLE CLASS AGAIN TO TAKE TESTS ONCE AGAIN. UHHH. MAYBE IT'S JUST ME BEING STRANGE, BBBBUUUT. I DO REALLY SEE EXAMS AS NOTHING MORE THAN A FORMALITY AND SO I KIND OF FEEL LIKE I'M ALREADY FINISHED WITH HIGH SCHOOL AND AND AND, YOU KNOWWW, I FEEL JUST LIKE TOMORROW'S GOING TO BE ONE OF THESE REUNIONS AFTER TEN-OR-SO-YEARS AFTER GRADUATION AND UUUHMMM. IT'S SO STRANGE! AHAHAH.
OH GOD. THEY'RE ALREADY TALKING ABOUT EXAMS ON THE NEWWWSSS. THEY DO THIS EVERY YEAR AND I KNOW TOMORROW, WHILE I'LL BE CURSING THE IDIOT WHO CAME UP WITH THE ABSOLUTELY UNINSPIRING PROMPTS&CO.(BECAUSE, IT HAPPENS, LIKE, ALWAYS), MY PARENTS (AND POSSIBLY MY BROTHER TOO) WILL BE AT HOME, WATCHING THE NEWS THAT WILL BE ALL ABOUT THE EXAMS AND WHICH PROMPTS WERE GIVEN THIS YEAR BECAUSE, YES, THEY'RE THE SAME FOR THE WHOLE COUNTRY--!!

( And just because I like doing SMART things instead of writing my essay which, yes, is for the oral test which is also the LAST test we'll be taking, but that I'm still supposed to turn in TOMORROW already, you get something nice hidden behind this cut! )

NOW I SHALL GO.









...AND SKETCH FANARTS YOU PROBABLY WON'T EVEN EVER SEE!!!

Nyah. At the end of high school, students first get their final grades to know if they’re actually allowed to take the state exams. Then, after a pause of a couple weeks (more or less) said exams begin. They’re structured like this:

( Click to know more about the horrible and most idiotical hell Hika’s going to be put through!  )

Getting on something lighter and even more stupid!!, here comes…
( …Hikaology! The first (and last) official, wonderful issue! )

And. I just realized I need to make myself some decent icons. And why do I feel the sudden urge to read ItaSasu doujins when I don't even read Naruto??!!

Yay. It's very late (really??) and I should go to bed, but I've decided I must post and so here I am. Furthermore, the nailpolish I put on is still quite fresh and I don't want to ruin my hard work by going to bed~
However~ *clears throat*
During the past week, I've been thinking a lot about many things (which, of course, are all pretty trivial, but, hey, what did you expect from me??), and I've thus come up with the following list(s).

( Fear not, for the content behind this cut is completely angst!free~ )

Now I'm going to bed since it's 4:00 am, and although school finishes around eleven, I've still got to get up early... *sweatdrop* Can't wait for this torture to finish once and for all. =o=;

I've wanted to post something since... well, it was quite a whi~~le ago. I've even written a Comicon report with pics (except that it is not finished yet. After two weeks or more or I don't even know, because I'm so losing track of time...), but never got around to finish post it. Ahhh.
( So, here's what my life is like at the moment! Beware! Image heavy content inside! )

AND I LOVE KAYA'S LATEST SINGLE, CHOCOLAT, BECAUSE YES, SHAME ON ME, I ONLY DOWNLOADED IT A COUPLE DAYS AGO. UWAAAAAH~ IT MAKES ME SO SO SO HAPPY!

It has already been a long time since I last updated, hasn't it? Honestly, I hadn't really noticed till I glanced at the lovely LJ homepage with a decent amount of concentration and read that I had last posted something here, like, two weeks ago. Yay me.
Everyday I tell myself I want to write and rant over something I just read/watched/thought, but little brother-san, here, won't let me. He's like--like a leech, when it comes to the net. But--Let's not talk about this. It only makes my head ache, so~

( Boring rant over school and politics and cosplay and jerks and fashion and fanfics and fanarts ahead! )

That said, folks, I must go and write something. I hope I won't forget updating again. ^___^

P.S. If you have never did it, go and listen to Placebo's A song to say goodbye--I love Placebo and I meant to say this for a very long time, but... go and listen to it!! It's like, Seishirou saying goodbye to Subaru... T________T Must write something with that song, someday, although I hate song-fics, usually...

Hello? T___T/
Sorry this is so pointless, but my life seems a neverending rush of events/things to do/random disturbances, and I don't have even time to breathe.
( Warning! Boring rant behind this cut! )
As for now, I've joined au100 and claimed SeixSub. I can't wait to start working on the prompts!! <3333 I've always loved writing AUs (it's just the TB/X fandom that got me into writing fics with canon setting, all of sudden...), and I already have a few alternate universes in mind.
I'm posting the theme table here so that you can read it and suggest plots/settings. <3

001.	Beginnings	002.	Middles	003.	Ends	004.	First	005.	Last
006.	Hours	007.	Days	008.	Weeks	009.	Months	010.	Years
011.	Red	012.	Grey	013.	White	014.	Black	015.	Blue
016.	Purple	017.	Brown	018.	Green	019.	Pink	020.	Colourless
021.	Friends	022.	Enemies	023.	Lovers	024.	Family	025.	Strangers
026.	Teammates	027.	Parents	028.	Children	029.	Birth	030.	Death
031.	Sunrise	032.	Sunset	033.	Too Much	034.	Not Enough	035.	Sixth Sense
036.	Smell	037.	Sound	038.	Touch	039.	Taste	040.	Sight
041.	Shapes	042.	Triangle	043.	Square	044.	Circle	045.	Moon
046.	King	047.	Heart	048.	Diamond	049.	Queen	050.	Joker
051.	Water	052.	Fire	053.	Earth	054.	Air	055.	Spirit
056.	Breakfast	057.	Lunch	058.	Dinner	059.	Food	060.	Drink
061.	Winter	062.	Spring	063.	Summer	064.	Fall	065.	Passing
066.	Rain	067.	Snow	068.	Lightning	069.	Thunder	070.	Storm
071.	Broken	072.	Fixed	073.	Light	074.	Dark	075.	Shattered
076.	Rebirth	077.	Paralysis	078.	Disease	079.	Agony	080.	Healing
081.	Blind	082.	Deaf	083.	Lost	084.	Found	085.	Missing
086.	Choices	087.	Life	088.	He	089.	She	090.	It
091.	Birthday	092.	Christmas	093.	Thanksgiving	094.	Solstice	095.	New Year
096.	Writer‘s Choice	097.	Writer‘s Choice	098.	Writer‘s Choice	099.	Writer‘s Choice	100.	Writer‘s Choice

Lastly, it's meme time! <333 It was originally an icon meme from sakujosadame's journal (aww, she made such a lovely icon for me!! *__*), but since I don't have a decent pic-editing software, I'm turning it into a drawing meme like yoru_yume. <3

1. Comment with lyrics and a fandom.
2. I'll draw a fanart/sketch that represents those lyrics/uses them in some way.
3. Repost and do this for your friends♥

Now, it's shower time, and then I've got to studystudystudy and PAINT. OMG THE CLOCKS ARE TORTURING ME EVEN IN MY DREAMS.

Bai bai and thanks for reading~~!

Hello~.
It has been a while, hasn't it? I got back from Madrid ten days ago, in the evening. Studied Philosophy till 4 am and went to school on the day after while everyone else was at home. Resting. Me, I had this Philosophy certamen (i.e. challenge) to decide who would represent our school at the regional selections (which will take place on 3/31). From then on, I haven't been sleeping more than three hours each night. At least, it seems my efforts were rewarded, since I got the best score like last year~ but this also means that I get even more extra-extra studying to do, and I feel like everything is so rushed and I'm not learning anything at all... X__x;
Luckily, Easter break started, and yesterday was my first day of freedom! <3 Yay! >:D I actually spent the morning looking for decent green contacts with Lau-chan, then she came over at my place for lunch and stayed till eight, and the whole afternoon went by painting that damn fabric DGHRUIBVGHJDSVKIKB Today I continued on my own, and now I'm almost finished, but I don't even want to think about when we'll have to paint the details of each clock... right now, it's all blue dots of three different sizes on a huge piece of black fabric. *faints*
Since I got back, I have been on the Net only a couple times, and for a few minutes too. I didn't have time to stay longer, sorry. So, if anyone has posted something they want me to read, please, let me know/post a link! I promise I'll search through my friends' journals to catch up ASAP, but I don't want to miss anything important~! >.<;/
However, I've been working on a fic in the meanwhile. I'm posting it tomorrow with something else (right now, really, I'm nearly dead to the world and the basic ways to use a pc/interact with other human beings).
I don't even want to talk about the school trip-- too tired, too uninteresting. I'll simply let you know that I don't like Madrid (speak about dull comments, uh?).

( And, here are some pics, just because I love pictures, even though I didn't even bother to edit these... )

Tomorrow I shall work on the fabric and finish it, but I still want to rant over TRC OAV 3 and chapter 185! write and draw again... D:
Does anybody have some nice (drawing) meme to tag me with? I'm bo~red!

Hika is writing to tell everyone that she is sorry she hasn't been able to post anything this week - fics, scans. Anything.

As you probably know already, Saturday morning I'm leaving for Madrid, and, actually, I'd rather stay here than leave. For the first time in my life I'm not eager to get away from home; I guess I'm too angry and bitter and - god - I'm so glad this is my last year in high school. I can't stand it anymore - everyday I see the same faces, I listen to the same idiocies, and, more and more, I wish I could smash someone's face, at least. I'm stressed, I know.

And work. I hope I'll manage to get a better job this summer, because tutoring is so frustrating when the kids are irresponsible and so lazy they don't do anything on their own-- always waiting for you to show them the way. Heh. Leeches. I think it's a matter of respect too: if I'm working for you, then the least you can do is to be respectful and don't let my efforts be in vain. And between that and the clubs and courses at school and everything else I just don't have any time for myself.

The only things which keep me going are the thought of university (I can't believe that in a matter of months I'll be finally able to study what I really like-- more than anything else and that - as corny and stupid as it may sound - constitues a good portion of the sense of my very existence) and of the upcoming Con on April.
In the end I'm going to cosplay TB!Subaru with the blue/clock outfit. Unexpectedly, Lau-chan (who's just gotten into X after I lent her my copies) decided to join me and do Hokuto! This happened a while ago, but the thought of cosplaying together with a friend is still enough to make me smile like an idiot. I've drawn a matching outfit for her myself. It's actually pretty much identical to Subaru's, except for the skirt and a few details here and there to make it more feminine.
Tomorrow I'm going to preorder our wigs, while tonight I must work on the black fabric that goes inside our jackets-- I need to paint clocks all over it and I'd like to have it done before I leave. *sighs*

However, I'll do my best to post something before I leave. I swear I'll try.

Now I'm going take a shower and then work and eat and work again.

First of all, Hika's got a terrible headache, she's feeling weak and has got tons and tons of stuff to do and. I hate overworking myself.

( Here you can read my rant about school and tiredness in general... )

( ...and, right behind this cut, you may admire the wonderful pics I took on Saturday at school! )

I'm also supposed to work on several illustrations for a project and, yes, it seems I will get paid for that. I simply don't have any time to draw, but I'll manage. Somehow. I'm sure I will. Kinda of.
Btw, the doujins I purchased got here a few days ago too!! I <3 them so much!! I'll try to scan them in the week-end, so I can have someone translate them, hopefully! *crosses fingers*

( CLICK HERE FOR A PREVIEW! )

As for the fanfics and fanarts I'm working on... Please, be patient. T^T I promise I'll post at least something before I leave for Madrid... *sighs* Now I gotta go: time to get to work~~ ;__;

For once Hika has decided to write a real life entry. <3 Bow down and rejoice.
Mh, so, I'm feeling pretty tired (and there's still that damn head-ache lingering since this morning), but~ it's a good kind of 'tired'~ y'know, like when you worked really, really hard but it makes you happy and satisfied too? *smiles*
From today till Saturday, regular activities at school will be suspended and, instead, students will hold lessons for other students, sometimes with the help of friends from outside the school who have volunteered to lend a hand. Or, some teachers have also offered to support or join certain lessons. Each student has to choose two different courses and follow them through these three days.
Then, since the comics course got a lot of adhesions (something like 120 people, more or less) and it was necessary to spilt the group in two, I was asked to be the teacher in one of the two courses. <3
( Gyah~! It was such an awesome experience! )

I'm supposed to go to the hairdresser in... I really don't know, but my mother is already shouting it's late. *sweatdrop* And, my classmates sort of managed to convince me to leave with them for the school trip in Madrid. I didn't want to go, because it was pretty expensive, and I'd rather go and travel to London/Finland this summer, than spend my parents' money to visit a city I don't like at all. But it seems I'm getting everything for free and, well, at least I'm glad to spend some time simply having fun~
Anyhow, Hika is quite happy today~! In fact, she just got her TB clear file <333 And yesterday the package from CdJapan arrived too <333 *dances*
So, since I was on a high from all this joy, I decided I just had to take pictures, and then I realized, camerawhoring didn't sound too bad at the moment. XD

( BEWARE, THIS IS GOING TO BLIND YOU! )

Hello~ I'm currently (and secretely) using my little bro's laptop, since he isn't back from school yet. He's been on the Net for the past two days, leaving the connection open even when he's at school/is doing something else-- I think he's downloading something, and as much as I hate his behaviour, I'm gritting my teeth and trying to act as if nothing was bothering me. I don't want to argue with him over this, because I already know what is he going to say, how our eventual fight would affect my parents, etc, so, just like always, Hika is doing her best to be a Mature Older Sister, because se hates useless screaming and noise in general. So. I can't either rant about cosplay and life in general (I've got to go in less than fifteen minutes, damn work) nor post the sketches I scanned yesterday, but since I'm already working on Forget Me Not, I thought a fic meme could be quite useful, right now...

( TO ALL MY SEIXSUB READERS! FOLLOW THE CUT, PWEASE!! )

Okay. So.
I've been banned from the Net.
...
Okay.
That, actually, isn't true.
It was just my little brother keeping our shared modem all to himself for days. And me working on many useless things instead of my homework that's why I'm SO going to fail the Math test, on Tuesday.
Just give me a couple days to make some order inside my head here. And on my desk, too.

Here's the schedule of Hika's wondrous upcoming works:

COMING SOON
Forget me not [3/5]
Tokyo Babylon/X fanart
More annoying posts

COMING NOT-SO-SOON
Finis - a Seishirou-centric doujin (script almost complete!)
Some random KuroFay goodness <3
Elricest drabbles for 30nights

See you.

( HIKA'S BEING EMO!! )

...but on the brighter side, spending a whole day locked up in my room gave me the chance to come up with more ideas for yummy porn TB & X fanarts <333
Aaand~ I've completed the TB fanart I was working on too <3 Still no inking though (and to think I love inking T__T/); and whether or not I get it done for tomorrow, I'm still going to post the pencil sketches I did~
Maybe.

Ladies and gentlemen this is Hikasama speaking~ We are proudly presenting you her New and Functioning Computer <333 YAY.
Yesterday dad came home from work and went straight to the living room where that very cpu which went BOOM the other day was resting; he took it and went out again. He came back in less than a couple hours with my sweet darling in his arms <333 Oh~ I love it so, so much <3 I can open the 'start' menù without having to wait for it to appear <333 It's a Win XP too, but who cares? Now I don't have to worry for my data getting lost at any moment, nor for the softwares being too heavy and and and... everything is quicker <3 Now I just need to download iTunes and eMule and a couple of other things, and then my life will be perfect~ and next to the new cpu, the best thing is the infrared mouse <333

I'll soon make myself a new id for lj and~ goodness, I need a new layout. Something with Subaru. And Seishirou. And maybe Kamui too. But I couldn't find any living lj comm which accepts requests *sighs* Someone help meee~~~ *echoing shout*

Yesteday I drew my first X fanart. It's a group pic of Fuuma, Kamui and Kotori. I hate Kotori, but I liked the idea of drawing the three of them together. And my Kamui is a woman and Kotori looks like Sara Mudou and FUUMA LOOKS LIKE A GIRL. I already added the details and all, but I didn't ink it. I think I'll do the inking on some higher-quality paper. I've also started another fanart~ this one is 'bout Hokuto, Subaru and Seishirou during the TB days *weeps* I want it to be similar to the other: I'll stick with similar poses and, probably, outfits too <3
I've also got in mind at least other two sets of correlated pics but - as always - whenever I'm getting creative and ispired, I'm torn between drawing and writing. And I end up doing neither.

I wrote some more of Nisemono~ my, my. I don't think I've ever written anything like that. It seems it's all about touching, feelings, sensations and such. But I don't really think there'll be a lemon *sweatdrop* I haven't written one in years, since a dear friend of mine practically forced me to write her a RiffxCain lemon as a present for St. Valentine's day.

Ah, I'm hungry, too, now. And I don't want to think about school and going back there. And I purchased Petshop of Horrors a couple days ago <333 T___T And I'm trying hard to convince myself I don't need to buy the two X artbooks. Or the Medabot videogame for GBA I saw at Block Busters'-- it costs just ten euros but I must buy nothing else than manga - which is necessary - because I need to save if I want to make a decent Subaru outfit, and I have to work a whole hour to earn ten, miserable euros T____T

I totally hate my mother's laughter. It makes my ears BLEED.